Finding the Perfect Marriage

                                                

Growing up marriage was described as a fairytale. Through the church we get this idea that we marry in the temple, a castle look alike, to the man of our dreams, our prince, and then live happily ever after. No one really talks about what happens after the wedding, after a few years, what now? Two years down the road and I'm not sure if I'm doing it right. Marriage seems to be going well, but many couples claim to have a happy marriage. How can I insure that my marriage is everlasting? How can I make sure that my husband will constantly love me, how can I always be enough for him so he doesn't ever have to look for something better?

In two years of marriage the one fear I've had is not being good enough, so I've worked countlessly to try and impress my husband. I don't know if these are the correct intentions, but I have learned that through serving my husband I feel happy and more connected with him. My prayers are constantly filled with how I can be a better wife for my husband and how I can start working on being a good mom for our future children. 

I've always felt like I was close to my Savior, I've always tried to do my best at going to church, reading my scriptures, praying and being a good person, but I have never been more searching than while being married. Through marriage I've worked even harder to never forget my prayers or my scriptures, going to church or serving others. I've never prayed so much in my life, I've never tried to be more selfless than while being married to my husband. When they talk about the marriage triangle and that you grow closer to each other as you grow closer to Heavenly Father, you never really understand the feeling until you're going through it. I've never felt closer to Heavenly Father than being married. Yes I still have my insecurities and I'm sure satan works hard keeping these at the back of my mind, but I've been able to grow more as a person through the help of my Heavenly Father. 

So is there such thing as a perfect marriage? I don't believe that you can achieve perfection but it's our job to try, and through Heavenly Father's help we'll get closer and closer every day.