Letting Go of Past Relationships

 

At the beginning of my marriage I struggled a lot emotionally. In high school I was in a very manipulative relationship where I was never the only girl in his life. When my husband and I met that was very important to me, I saw the characteristics that my husband had and they were very different than the ones of my mentally abusive relationship. Yet when we got married I found myself constantly worried that my husband was going to cheat on me or leave me. I hadn't fully recovered from this past relationship, I didn't think I was good enough. I was constantly questioning my marriage.

If you've never read the book "How to Avoid Falling in Love with a Jerk" by John Van I would highly recommend doing so, even if your relationship isn't going through anything. This book helped me to get past my issues. I was so frustrated that I was questioning my husband when he never gave me any reason to question him. He's such a good man, but because I didn't go into our marriage fully recovered I struggled. I put him through a lot of it as well, and that's something that he didn't deserve.

Marriage isn't a happily ever after, it's a progressive cycle. Something that we can always and should always be working on. I know I still have a lot of work to do, but I'm glad I get to work on it with my amazing husband.